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as i lay me down to sleep (on a bed of paperwork)
08 February 2006 |
I know I have a tendency to make things sound and look pretty. To tie everything in a nice, neat bow. Perfect little packages. But that's not life, and I know that. Life is sometimes ugly and messy, stressful and crazed. Wedding planning can be overwhelming. Working from home can get lonely. Transitions, like the ones I am going through, can be painful and awkward and exhausting.
So why don't I write about it? Because I don't feel like it. Because I like to keep things to myself and those close to me. Because sometimes I do start to write about it, but as I write, I process, and as I process, I start to instantly feel better, and the paragraphs I just wrote are already outdated.
So why am I bothering to write about it now? I haven't the slightest clue. It's 4:30 in the afternoon and I am tired of thinking about the wedding for today and I want to take a nap but there's a pile of papers on my bed that should be sorted first. I knew I wanted to update my site, but I had no idea what I was going to say. This is what came out.
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ever heard the phrase, "stop shoulding all over yourself"? take your nap, honey. you must be very sleepy. xoxoxoxoxoxoxo p.s. rama totally gets it, as i'm sure you know. :) pixie | February 10, 2006 11:41 AM |
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good for you girl. i know i don't have to tell you that putting stuff on paper and getting it off your chest is a completely therapeutic exercise. writing is totally about writing for *yourself* xo! stella | February 9, 2006 03:12 PM |
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naps are healing when you're feeling the overwhelm of planning a wedding. nap away...nap with rama. : ) bohemiangirl | February 9, 2006 01:38 PM |
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i get what you mean completely! and rama does too:) that is 1/2 the reason to write, no? i'm going to need to ask you for advice soon after you get married my dear! in the meantime, one neat bow at a time! matirose | February 9, 2006 10:30 AM |
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It's a good habit, to focus on the positives, otherwise you become too caught up in negative emotions. I want to look for the laughs at all times. Life's more enjoyable that way. And YAY! for writing and the way it helps to clarify things. Thanks for your honesty. chelsea | February 8, 2006 06:29 PM |
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i love the way your brain works. how it frets until you reflect. you always see the silver lining somehow. more than that, you actually appreciate it. that is a wonderful gift. rama | February 8, 2006 06:08 PM |